Ryan's 3rd Birthday!

We celebrated Ryan's 3rd Birthday today. I can't believe it's been three years already! You would think it would feel like an eternity, but it really has felt like just a year ago he was born. With Caleb added to our family it really sped up the time. This morning all four of us were in bed talking about Ryan and when we blew kisses up to heaven, Caleb blew his first kiss and it was the cutest thing ever. We celebrated with family over for a wonderful birthday dinner and with singing happy birthday and had an amazing cake with three little candles. When Jonathon saw the table set up he was so excited and yelled, "Yay! It's Ryan's Birthday!" It was so sweet to see how excited he was and it gave me flashbacks of when he was two yrs. old and he ran into the room at the hospital to hold his baby brother Ryan for the first time, it was the same excited face yelling, "Baby!"

We're going to collect donations again this year for Ryan's Closet, we'll be shipping the preemie outfits, blankets and preemie hats from Fresno, CA to Seattle in three weeks where they will then be shipped to Uganda, Africa. Last year was our first year and it turned out so well, so we're excited to do it again. I put all the information on facebook so if any of you out there want to donate that don't have facebook, leave me a comment and I'll get back to you.

We miss Ryan very much, everyday he is in our hearts and thoughts and today was a peaceful and beautiful day remembering his birth. The day of his birth was so scary, but such a miraculous day as well. I'm so thankful he was born alive, that was a miracle in itself, it was a very close call. For the next four days we will be thinking of the four special days we shared with him. We'll watch his videos and I'll miss kissing his cute little nose and head, I'll be missing his tiny hands squeezing my finger, I'll miss watching his legs kick all around, and I'll miss the way his little eyes would open when he heard our voices talking or singing to him. He, along with our other two boys, is the best thing that's ever happened to us. He changed our hearts and our lives for the better. We hope to live a life to where he will be proud of us. Thank you sweet Ryan for your example of strength, courage, hope and love. Happy 3rd Birthday baby boy!

Proud big brother :)

I have the sweetest friends and family! My amazing friend Summer and her family did this today in our behalf, so extremely sweet!!! We were truly touched. Thank you guys again and again!